As a Malaysian , i don't really have the 'new year is coming' kind of feel. Maybe because i'm used to sit around in my working office and not knowing what it feels like to be productive. hahaha ! but then, i do know the serious issues that is currently happening out there. Floods, and the airplane crash especially . What a bad ending for the year of 2014. Prayers from the deep of my heart. Those who's lost in fears, who's going through despair, children who've lost their home and separated from their family. It's so hard for them. All, in pain.
Since the flood's situation is turning better but the place is still a mess. It's obvious that people might need quite a time for them to clean up and start over again. Can't imagine if i'm the one who's in their shoes. It took so much courage to face the disaster that just happened. It seems like it's a mini size tsunami. But Alhamdulillah people had time to save themselves even though some ,which is a veryvery minor amount lost their lives. Innalillah.
Well, not just all of that though. Few hours before the night turned into a new year, i actually had a fight with my boo. Typically we're just two person who's kinda more then friends but not lovers ? People call it ' scandal ' . Which sounds a bit ... 'badars' for me . hahaha . Why does it have to sound that bad man? hahaha. I can see he doesn't want to take any responsibilities or commitment that is required but what makes it more worst is that we're having a far distance relationship. So, i',m not really sure what to do with this dude. All i know is that i told my girlfriends if he doesn't know how to appreciate my presence i'll make sure that it hurts so much on the day i leave him.
Harsh eih ? Try to be the person who's keep worrying whether your boo had eaten or not while you know he don't have any money left to feed himself. Be the person who's trying to warn him the bad habits of him driving his motorcycle that can cause his life. Try to be the person who's trying to stop him being so attracted of smoking cigarette when you know he refuses to. Be the person who has to swallow all the anger while he can't be blamed . He never listens. Of course. I don't mind being the one who's suffering but then i'm not his MUM . It's not my job to teach him moral standards. We're both 21 and know what's right or wrong. I'm trying my best to lead him to a better future a better life but if he doesn't want to listen then let it be. Judging from the way he treats me it'll only shows that he ain't worth it . That's for sure.
So, i'm currently making sure that i'm getting myself well prepared for a new person since when i'm off, i'll make sure his gone without me . Thanks for everything dude, and now we wait.
Have a great new year guys ! Happy 2015 ;)
Sincerely,
Anna
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