GREATFUL

I use to remember when i lost my way to move on , 
I was thinking about suiciding , about hurting others back ,
Manipulating , and of course attitudes , personalities 
BUT  ..
None of those thinking makes me feel right . 
I'm not the kind of like 'giving' back bad things that people ' gave' to me . 
I'm not the kind of hurting myself to let others feels right ?
I'l just talk back when it needs to defend my self and my rights but not straightly to the person that i was meant to talk with . 
Honestly , I don't have the GUTS . 
I don't find problems with others .
It's just things turned out different from what i expected . 
I was naive , what do you expect ?  
So i just shut up and talk behind that person's back . 
HAHA .
Foolish am i ? But ! 
THERE'S A GOOD REASON FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED . 
At the same time when i was hurt , i wish that person's the best ..
I wish that he'l find out the reason why we HATED each other .
Why we OFFEND , DISGRACE and even CRUSH each other .

So now i am being stronger then before . 
Being more mature then i use to be . 

I'm THANKFUL , to that person . Others too , who treated me the same way . 
For now i know the meaning of standing alone , fight for myself .  
For that person hurted me the most , is the person who cherish my life with faith .
My world was once dark , but now i see colours again .
I'VE MOVED ON .

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