I'm missing you .

I dont feel like writing your name down cause i posted my blog's entry at FB so yeah , no names :)
I'm missing you . And errmm , i'm kinda worried ?
Maybe because i din't want to start another relationship but at the same time i really missed you alot .
Omg please let me stop having this kind of feeling ><
Maybe because i like your style of being yourself , i admirer you for being so cool and mature all the time .
Based on what i know bout you we're still not that close ? 
But i have a feeling that you're avoiding me so i'l stop finding you these days ..
It's just that i'm bout to start a new life WITH or WITHOUT you . 
And you've already start your life at the other place where's far away . At another country .
Seriously you're really quite unusual cause i never fall for a guy just by yamcha with him at one day and with someone i dont know much . 
HAHA . 
I HATE THIS KIND OF FEELING !
HATE IT ALOT >< !
I dont like the feeling of others avoiding me . 
Hmmmmmmm ... =/ What to do ? It's hard to stop liking you ><
Eventhough it's just 3 days but you seriously make me hooked up on you easily =='
Maybe due to lack of social i became like this ? But it's ohkay .
I'l try to let you go anyway . I dont intend to tell you what i feel . 
But .. i dont want toooooooooooo >< 
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG !!! HOW ?????!! @@

UJIAN BAHAGIAN 2 & 3 :)

Today was my car test with the JPJ . Seriously , FRUSTRATED ==

I was suppoes to arrive at 11am , but since dad desnt have the time i went there at 7 sumthin and arrived at 8 + am . All i can do is wait . And wait ..... and wait =__________=  

I was dying cuz of over-bored . HAHA . 

When it's near to 11 , i went to block C . There's 4 blocks if im not mistaken , i was at black A watching other people who took motor test :) 

And so , WAIT AGAIN ==

I dont remember what time is it but then the 3rd session students went into a hall room and get our numbers and all n all . Before that we stil have to wait INSIDE . Aiyorhmaaahh =='

After that we went to outside at one place there to sit and wait our turn to go on the hills . I was trying to cool down so i wont freak out or panic if my car moves backwards .
YOU KNOW WHAT ? 
The car tat i use was ..... SUCH A PAIN AT THE ASS ==

PROB . A very very PROBLEM-SM CAR == [ lazy to write what prob isit , so i'l skip details ]

Im so relieved to see the JPJ was busy with his own things so he dint saw my car was moving backwards :p

After the hill i felt relieved a bit but then need to worry parking =/

im not really scared bout the 3 pointer cause that part is the easiest part . The JPJ was quite cute act :p YOUNG , HAHA !

Parking was no prob at all , its just that my car got a lil bit senget . haha :p

When it comes to 3 pointer , i suddenly realised sumthin very very bad . My CAR ==

I was like : SH** ! What should i do ?! ------ so my car was reverse stop reverse stop . 

Here comes the PANIC . So i just simply turn right  and  stop cause cant get through or i'l bang the tiang T~T

in the end ----> FAIL .

Hve to wait 1.30pm to continue on the road , so i just drink a tin of chrysanthemum tea .

So MOODY ;( hmm .. :(

After that went back to block C again and WAIT ==

It started to rain later , HEAVILY .

I was so tired and sleepy ~________~

omg >< why ?? why the whole day all i do is wait ?

haiz . 

When its finally my turn on the road im not really in the mood ( i think )

But when i open d car door i heard music . Timbaland's apologize :D 

Then here comes the mood baybeh ! wahahaha :D

The JPJ was a guy and stil new in fatherhood :) a very funny and sporting guy ^^

We went to a shortcut that's not far away then go back to driving school . 

He said im cute . HAHA ! Muehehheeh :p

So yahh , that's today's memory . So freaking tiredddd =______+

Theconclusionimadeis : The whole day all i do is WAIT ==

today met :

--- sasikumar :) such a gentleman ^________^

---comati :) Sweet girl ;)

---nabilah :) know at the end of day , shy shy geh :D ?

---a sweet girl who's taking motor ^^

---another sweet girl who got flu and looks like crying ;)

---2 chinese guys that looks familiar when i dont know them :p 19 years old ;)

---number 21 ! haha :D our number terbalik :p

---number 4 , 30 years old sis :)

---and the JPJ guy :p muahahhaa XD

YOU

YOU , who stoled my courage to love again ,
YOU , who broked my heart deeply inside ,
YOU , who made me believed in word that never truly excisted ,
YOU , who once make me believe in love ,and now not anymore ..

HAHA .

I dont wanna write bout this actually , but , it's my blog n i have the rights to write down what i felt :)
And i dint update my blog long time jorr ;)
Well , yeah . Think bout u ? Once in a blue moon too . Cause u're good , u're really good .
Makes me have a different kind of thinking towards this world :)
But alas , our personality doesn't match . You know what ? I LOVED YOU  .
I truly do . And it's true . Not fake at all and this time , i know it's LOVE :) instead of LIKE .
I know the difference , Yes , maybe i misjudged you .
I tried to change you , to become a better son for your mum and dad . Just to prove to you , your parents and me that being with me you can be a better person . I tried . Very very hard :')

After we're apart , i realised that i've lost you for having that kind of thinking . So funny , huh ?
For just having good thoughts for you when you can't / hard to accept the way i treated you .
It's not your fault . I've tried to control you . That's why . Instead of changing you through the right way , i chosed the hard way . Becuase of my ego , and being arrogant . HAHA .

I know , it's too late . Seriously , i've let you go .
But i dont wanna forget you . You make me feel appreciated , for the 1st time . Although you're the 5th guy i dated . It's all worth it :) I LOVE YOU . Still do , a little bit .
Cause i stil remember you . You changed my mind . Now i'm becoming more mature , and i love myself more . Thanks to you . Thank YOU , for everything .