Can I cry ?

if there's a chance ,
i wanted 2 cry everyday in my life .
i'm tired of these argueings n judgegings ,
i wanted 2 be me who i am n always is .

i've changed ..
n i realised tat .

its so hard 4 everything 2 go back .
i lost myself n my innocent tat ppl 'hacked' .
haha . m i ?
things r getting more n more complicated .
n im getting more n more emo .
trying so hard not to lose control ,
dont want myself to be a fool ,
always wanted to look nice n cool ,
but people makes it hard 4 me to do ..

ahh ..
i stil remmeber ,
i lock everyth up in myself ..
im so tired of it ..
i cried nearly everyday at tat time ..
but now ,
i know how to say my feelings out loud .
but too loud tat make people thinks tat im proud .
being straightforward is a problem ,
but its stil better den being sum1 who is speechless ..

i always wanted to be like tat ..
SPEECHLESS
no 1 will know wad i think or what i want .
no 1 wil cum near me n i'l juz be alone .
sumtimes making frens with animals is better then making frens with humans dough .
its true ! haha :D

i like to help ppl , i like to appreciate wat others do 4 me or 4 any1 .
reality is always cruel ..
it'l tear my heart 2 pieces n let it broke juz like tat .
'its ok , i can fix it up.'
but i cant ... i cant do tat anymore ...
i knw how it feels to lose hope nw .
i knw how it feels to lost everyth .
i knw how , to make myself feels even more worser n not better ..

i usually thought tat i shouldnt cry cuz i dun wanna let any1 get worried .
but i cant stand it now ,


CAN I CRY ?