M I FOGeTTen?

"if he reli misses me den gud lorh..bt i knw he wont..cuz he always said:旧的不去新的不来...i've just become of a memory tat nt even worth it 4 him.."



i've send this msg to matthew yesterday nite...

the reason i send this msg is because at monday ,at the period time of skul recess,
i was patrolling at the skul area finding students to catch..
i caugth mao at the 2nd time i saw him..
den matthew said: ben tel me he miss u.
i was thinking:if he reli misses me den shuang lorh...
i knw its not real cuz maybe he's not that type of guy..? just maybe..

i said im nt gud enuf 4 him but he say he dont care.
i said im a mix and ppl would say many kinds of gossif of it and he say he wont mind..
that was before,but now?
even his x-girlfriend making gossip of us with disbelievely..

it hurts you know?

on monday,after my class pj it was his class. i was finding my teacher and he walk by me.
it hurts me at the time you walk by me and we cant even smile or talk.

recess,i have to go 3 floor to made the students to go down and 3rd floor was at the same row of his class.
his class is the 1st class i have to get in.
He's inside his class with his friend,justin and others that i dont reconise. i didnt went in because i didn have the spirit to talk to him..i was scared..but at the same time i wish i could talk to him.
i wanted to become his friend again..
But at last, i let the boys to made dem go down stairs..

everytime i listen to jay sean's song-all of nothing,i reli want to change the lyrics.
got one part it write:
' i replay it over and over again,
you were my girl but now we aint even friends,
you could be my all or nothing, all or nothing,
but now to me your nothing now your nothing..'


i want to change : "you always be my all or something,all or something
but now to me your still something boy your something.."



I know time are hard for the both of us now, but i reli wanted u to know i've been lock in the confusion dungion of time now..
i keep imaginating your still here with me even though it's not even close to reality..
But by imaginating things like this, i can at least have some comfort for myself..
cause there's no 1 here to help me but me..

i always hoped you read my blog and find me again but i knw, u wouldnt even wanted to think or see me.
im just like a disaster memory to u..
not even sweet or worth it..i thougth i knw everything about him,but i guess im wrong..

i admit, i still miss u. And sometimes it'll make me cry thinking bout you.
but i still want to knw...






HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ME?