生病的痛

24/1/10

我记得，我去年试过有一次肚子有风...

那是莫莫刚好来我家..

当时的痛，真的很痛..因为是我第一次体验肚子有风的痛...

我很记得医生说若发烧的话就是生盲肠，所以我在诊疗所哭了...

前年，我试过gastrik...我在电脑面前，边痛边忍。

但我妈说只要喝奶就行了，果然喝了之后就没事~

今年，我体验了肚子有风+gastrik..!

我认为可能是因为我刚睡醒来不及吃饭就去打高欧服球，之后又喝一百号，肚子空又有气...

我冲凉冲到一半的时候突然痛的..我快快出来然后跟我妈眯讲..

超痛的..TXT...我很清楚我当时在想什么..我想着：‘我宁愿死都好过挨这个痛。’

我哭不出来，因为真的很痛！！ 痛到语言都形容不到的痛！！痛到我连哭的时间都没有了..

不过吃药过后就没事了..真的很恐怖...

27/1/10

今天，我发烧..

本以为是生盲肠，但我知道为什么了。

星期二，我在巴士上睡觉的时候，有个小孩不小心动到我肩膀，把我吓醒了。

若我的朋友真的了解我的话，他们会懂，我睡觉的时候是不能被吓醒的。

若被吓醒不是冒冷汗就是发烧。

我是在当天早上，觉得自己好象会不舒服，但还是去了学校。

在不懂第几节开始我的身体的体温就开始上升。

我知道，我开始发烧了。

在班上，好多人关心我哦？ 郑建柯也好体贴哦~哈哈~谢了~

回到家，我冲了第一次发烧冲的凉之后快快吃完午餐拿冷衣及熊宝宝准备去睡觉。

睡觉之前，我好难过...我难过我发烧了..

我当时在我妈的房间里。 那房间里面，除了我，没有别人了。

我感到好寂寞..我不喜欢发烧，是因为我会觉得很孤单，每次要睡觉的时候，都会想到身边的朋友..

我在想，若我身边有个朋友陪着我那该有多好。至少我不是一个人，我不要一个人..

穿着建柯送的冷衣，抱猪猪萍、thurga、凯欣及慧雯送给我的熊宝宝，我在想..

朋友，你们在哪里？

M I FOGeTTen?

"if he reli misses me den gud lorh..bt i knw he wont..cuz he always said:旧的不去新的不来...i've just become of a memory tat nt even worth it 4 him.."



i've send this msg to matthew yesterday nite...

the reason i send this msg is because at monday ,at the period time of skul recess,
i was patrolling at the skul area finding students to catch..
i caugth mao at the 2nd time i saw him..
den matthew said: ben tel me he miss u.
i was thinking:if he reli misses me den shuang lorh...
i knw its not real cuz maybe he's not that type of guy..? just maybe..

i said im nt gud enuf 4 him but he say he dont care.
i said im a mix and ppl would say many kinds of gossif of it and he say he wont mind..
that was before,but now?
even his x-girlfriend making gossip of us with disbelievely..

it hurts you know?

on monday,after my class pj it was his class. i was finding my teacher and he walk by me.
it hurts me at the time you walk by me and we cant even smile or talk.

recess,i have to go 3 floor to made the students to go down and 3rd floor was at the same row of his class.
his class is the 1st class i have to get in.
He's inside his class with his friend,justin and others that i dont reconise. i didnt went in because i didn have the spirit to talk to him..i was scared..but at the same time i wish i could talk to him.
i wanted to become his friend again..
But at last, i let the boys to made dem go down stairs..

everytime i listen to jay sean's song-all of nothing,i reli want to change the lyrics.
got one part it write:
' i replay it over and over again,
you were my girl but now we aint even friends,
you could be my all or nothing, all or nothing,
but now to me your nothing now your nothing..'


i want to change : "you always be my all or something,all or something
but now to me your still something boy your something.."



I know time are hard for the both of us now, but i reli wanted u to know i've been lock in the confusion dungion of time now..
i keep imaginating your still here with me even though it's not even close to reality..
But by imaginating things like this, i can at least have some comfort for myself..
cause there's no 1 here to help me but me..

i always hoped you read my blog and find me again but i knw, u wouldnt even wanted to think or see me.
im just like a disaster memory to u..
not even sweet or worth it..i thougth i knw everything about him,but i guess im wrong..

i admit, i still miss u. And sometimes it'll make me cry thinking bout you.
but i still want to knw...






HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ME?

NeW $kuLl LifE iN @ NeW YEaR

Every student life sure has a opening skul life at every year till the year they finish skul..
me as usual keep finding ways to get rid of my homeworks duhh..
but tiz year everthing changed so suddenly, i feel like fall in love with the horrible homeworks and scary teachers.
haha..its kinda weird though.
i never liked homework before,i think homeworks are boring and wasting my precios time by doing them.
but i simply changed my mind don't know why.

Well,at my skul i got a different kind of job to do.
i hav to be a ‘calon peronda‘ at the beggining of skul and in the middle of the year i'll become the real peronda.
the first time i start my 'job' i think its fun cuz i think its kinda freshing. HAHA
but at the second week i think its kinda boring.
cuz the students dont reli hav anyth for me to catch edy.
some of them wont stop pissing me, and the others juz becum a gud student in an other way.
i have to run 10 rounds becuz i couldnt catch 5 ppl in the morning.

in class,im a gud student(i think i am).
but my clazz arent anything like i expect to. so noisy and there's plenty of son of the bitch.
they think they're the king but they juz not.
there aren't many handsome boys in my claz lolx.
for average there's 3: jun yean, charlie and jason.
for handsome juz 1:elias(y him?)
i think only 1+ girls in my claz includes me.
haiz..






i stil hoping he can look back at me.
we're not even friends now..how i wish to talk to him..
n his stupid x-girlfriend saying bad things about me but exaclty she's the bitch not me.
GOD DAMN IT..
我都没抓过她..无缘无故讲我坏话干嘛？

开学噜~

各位~开学咯~

不知为什么，今年我特别的期待..

因为我pmr成绩考到很不好，所以我打算要特别加油！！

去年我有变乖+勤劳了，所以只需要再出多点力就行了！！！

加油！ 这是我今年的标题！

“加油！！！”

非考到好成绩不可~！！=^=！

嘻嘻，好期待哦！