FINE

Well i wanna write my blog for a long time now but i dont know what should i write . haha , okay im  paphetic =~= maybe because i dont wanna write stuff bout sumthin ? u know what i mean . if u dont then just beat it :) kayy , i wanna write bout the sweetness of life . Yeahh its fun for tasting how beautiful , gorgeous , colourful life can be . As a female , things i like in my life is fashion , pretty stuffs , cool attitude and so much more . there's tons of  uncountable intrest ! i like or love so many things tat  i cant even choose or make decisions some times . Although im kinda realistic in person , but as a muslim , i choose to be someone who has a human heart n not cruel or selfish or anything that makes me bad inside . Yess , i make mistakes but thats human's nature right ? After realising it all i do is pray to god to forgive me and lead me to a better way so i wont make d same mistakes again . Im trying to live as a strong girl , a strong person and a strong human . I dont really wanna take any revenge to other peoples cuz its soo BAD :( Honestly , im not tat good cause i think i can manipulate people sometimes and i dont want become a bad guy :( so its ok for me being bullied at least others are fine :) one day , they'l realise their mistakes too and when tat time comes i've already forgotten what they've done to me :) Actually , its not hard to live happily in this life . Life's short , remember ? I stil dont get it how i can be so emo few years ago =='' i can smile without wearing any masks on now :) i had friends who'l back up me instead of betraying me :) i have family tat loves me and caring :) Finally , i finally found myself tat i've lost before , so long ago :) Next year , im gonna taste a different kind of life . Im still gonna stand firm and walk through any hardships :) i can be as strong as i use to be . Tats just who i am .Insyaallah ,  Everythings gonna be just FINE .

心，终于碎了

我选折离开你，也是自私的。 因为我不想浪费自己的力气等着再次看到你象之前那样对我的好。
我很累了，一直烦我们的问题，让我无法集中精神读书。想起我们的问题，会心疼，会流泪，会挣扎。现在，你不在了，心里也松了一口气。 不必担心任何东西除了自己。之前一直以为有你在心再痛也不会碎，现在心，终于碎了 .. 让我哭吧，大哭一场就会感到好一些，不是么？错 。 因为我可以每一天都大哭，寂寞时就哭，想起你就哭，心痛时就哭。 爱哭包嘛，是这样的啦 。 不过，被佳衍开导之后，我很少哭， 最多都几行泪水 。 并不多，最少两行。真没想到，你会比我先放弃。无所谓， 有一天会了解我的痛也是你自己 :')